Mi Journal

hello      I've finally had some time to sit down and do my own thing so I decided to look back read my old blog posts. To be honest, I'm quite surprised how much one can change in a year. The way I think and things that I share is definitely different already. Sometimes, I do miss the old me. She was more vibrant, not afraid to share what she thinks but can also be pretty naive. XD I laughed a lot more too. But somehow, I also like the me now more. I have more freedom and though I still have a lot of doubts, I don't seemed to get stressed out about them as much as last time. Maybe sometimes I just don't want to care anymore hahaha it's tiring :)      This year has been a roller coaster ride. I cried a lot but there's also moments where I felt truly lucky. I experienced a lot of new feelings and even if this year is not one of my best, I did learnt a lot of things and I'm really grateful for that. I learned that there's more love in me than I thought...

The last time I was here was... more than 5 months ago?! It seems I can't consistently keep my blog alive ahahah Most of the time I feel that things that happened were too personal so they go to my diary instead. Buttttt! I'm here today to say that I'm doing good and well. There's undoubtedly been highs and lows but I came out fine. I can't believe I'm already in my final year?! 2 more semesters and I will graduate. Honestly, I am not ready for it and has been feeling down for weeks because I felt lost and kind of reluctant to come out of my safety net which is my university. I guess all good things must come to an end. =) But who know's there's better things outside? Anywayyy, I finally had the chance to try these Hokkaido Cheese Tartsssss <3 I've always been eyeing them in malls because I like cheese and tarts and Japan :P so it's like the best combination! I received them as a birthday gift from a close one. They were really deliciou...

Internship has been fun. My colleagues are really nice, they feel like friends instead. I'm still a little awkward with my supervisor because I naturally get anxiety when talking with my superiors. I'm always worried whether I'm doing okay or if they are just usually quiet. :\ This morning while waiting for the traffic light to turn green, I spotted Rav walking pass our car but he can't hear us because he's wearing his headphone. Rav is my colleague who sits just behind me and is the closest to my age so we talk a lot. I decided to YOLO and exited the car to catch up to him. He still couldn't hear me running. Should've seen the shock on his face when I tapped his shoulder! It's been ages since I walked on the path to DPulze. Kind of nostalgic since I used to walk to and fro DPulze often with sis and Giang before I had my car. We talked all the way and I was feeling so warm by the time I reached the office. Exercise always makes me super hungry. That mo...

Just had my hair cut today to donate to Locks of Hope. Something which I have decided to do every year since my hair grows pretty fast. I don't want to waste it so might as well put it to good use! =D I went to Kimarie Salon at IOI Boulevard since it's near my house. It was my first time there and the hairstylist I got is surprisingly one year younger than me! Makes me feel olddd like I can easily find people younger than me working already. To me, they are always a kid. XD I don't know his name but he was quite friendly and funny. We talked about what we studied, he said I look young lol and I complimented his shoes. Probably he didn't expect me to be older than him. He told me that there are increasing more people like me who only cut their hair once a year and I said I only trim sometimes if there's a function. He replied "Well, I hope you'll  have more functions now then." I know he wants returning customers hahahaha It feels really weird (?) t...

I know of many people who are quite incapable of managing their time, sometimes even out of control. Personally, time management has been easy for me because I have been doing it since primary school but sometimes, it does get kind of hard. Especially when I don't have a list to follow, I'll spend that whole day doing nothing or just random bits here and there because I'm so lost. I have an obsession with planning things down to the details but not too much till it becomes overwhelming. I have also tried many different ways to organize my days and it changes every now and then depending on my situation. Some of my methods: a. From 9am to 5pm, I must only do my assignments. I'll treat it as my "working hours". For me, this method only works well on days with long classes but imagine if you only have a 2-hour class that day, procrastination will start to kick in. b. Writing everything down to the detail by the hour on what I should do specifically. This wo...

I can't believe how fast February arrived!! It just turned January like yesterday... :,( I am VERY relieved that it is at least week 13 now which means only 1 more week to suffer before the finals come. It was such a tiring semester; rewarding too. Grandaunt told Mom about free education in Germany and hoped for us to look more into it. It's kind of a scary thought for me personally but it would be a nice chance since we are still young. I asked my cousins to give it a thought too so we can maybe go together. I don't fancy going to a faraway country by myself first. >_< But I don't know how it will turn out. Need to do more research and go with whatever life throws me! A little throwback with the kids. He was kneeling on my stomach and it was hard to breath. I'm glad they didn't avoid me despite not meeting for more than a month T^T She just literally took out my Mom's powder and put it all over her face before applying on mine to...

Does love even exist anymore? I personally believe in it but it seems like people nowadays are just not that committed. Whenever there's a problem, an argument, no one want to fix it or it is just one-sided. Yesterday I found out that my ex-roommate broke up with her boyfriend of 8 years and a half about 4 months ago. How could you like and stay with someone so long and just easily dismiss them? I stalked the bf as well and there are pictures of his new girl. Somehow it broke my heart very much and I wanted to cry for her. My ex-roommate is a really sweet girl and she is gentle as well. She is like an older sister to me. Perhaps guys nowadays prefer the wild and fun types, it's hard to find a patient and kind one anymore. I remember her telling me how happy she is and how they are planning to get married after she graduate. I was so excited for her. I really would like to give her a hug now. Today my senior gave me a gift to pass to his ex, who is my classmate. Asked me to ...